As the world reels,

encapsulated in these four walls, 

Feels unnatural.

5

The daily murmur of the tree outside my balcony,

A million possibilities for my living room’s furniture,

Books stacked waiting to be read,

Canvasses drying in a corner,

Bonded pups who found their forever home; chaos is a noise to them. 

4

Fabuloso & Clorox swirling on my hardwood floor,

Grapefruit scented candles masking this recycled air,

Clean fur,

And the foul stench of post-covid hand sanitizer,

Welcome the ghosts of my past social life. 

3

Heavy bass permeating through the wall, 

Who failed to tell my neighbor’s we were meant to endure this alone?

The crunch of a dead wasp against my broom. 

Finally a visitor, and yet unwanted.

2

Tension,

So much,

tension.

It makes its home in the space between 

my skin 

and

what I longed this year to be.

1

Hope coats my taste buds.

At times, 

I find it peaking through the carbonated musings of my sparkling wine.

But mostly,

Hope coats my taste buds,

Because I’m starving for a future built on its existence.

And in the stillness imposed by the concern for our survival,

I practice devouring it whole.